Destructive

Yesterday, one of my friend asked me about how anxiety affects my physical conditions. I answered, there’s no direct physical effects to my body when i feel anxious, but it will affect my behavior and it would kill me slowly, or maybe suddenly lol.

When i feel anxious, i always eat a massive amount of foods, can’t sleep at all because my mind always played me, and later i will play a game to run away from the pain until the sun is rising up in the morning, then sleep like a solid rock for at least 10 to 15 hours. I did that almost everyday when i feel anxious, that would break my whole body in a long run, i knew it, but it can’t be helped.

And the final round is.... the isolation. I tend to isolate myself if i can’t get any help to relieve my pain, in the worst case, i’ve ever isolated my self from my family and friends for 2 months. But now, this behavior is fading, eventually.  Yep, this is me, i also have an anxiety disorder like the others too, even when you think that i’m just a dumbass that always laugh and act like a punk that have no problem in my life.

Recently i've been stressed out, but it’s not really matter, i’m okay.

Fun fact: if you ever see me eating “lalapan” alone, that’s a warning sign, i’m in danger, please save me.